The Real World

So, I definantly have not written in this log for quite a while. It does not seem like I graduated over a month ago. I can not believe high school is over with. While sitting waiting my turn to be called up, i realized and regreted that i did not do anything exciting in high school. No sports except for track, no clubs, not really getting to know very many people within school. I really wish i could rewind my high school career and redo everything i should've done, everything i shouldn't of done, and learned from mistakes that got me into trouble. But you cant change the past, you are going to have to face the consquences.

I have learned who is truely a friend and who is doesn't need to be in my life.

Oh, and I am in love .

Senior Yr

Senior Year as approached.

First to start off, looking back at my entrys. Ever since the beginning of my junior year, i realized how much things were changing between my friends, family and i. So many new things have happened to me this year. Great things and not so much. To gaining friends and losing some pretty good ones i had.

But i do have a certain special someone. :)

Will :)

Now it seems like i don't have much friends as i did before, or so true friends. It seems like i'm not too close to really much anyone anymore except a few people. It hurts, it really does.

But to get my mind of certain things, i dedicated my time to the best book and series that has ever been created.

TWILIGHT :)

i love xanga, i can just write down everything im feeling.

Welcome Summer of Oh-Eight

I haven't written on this for quite a while. Ha and ohh boy.. have things changed since my last entry. I don't know what to say in this, i just felt the need to update after a few months. I'm really excited for Senior Year. Yahh :) buttt.. i am finding who i really should be with and who i shouldnt be. I've made the same mistake as i did last summer i thought i learned. But i guess you have to learn someday.

I wish i knew everything before it happened when i was a kid. I wish someone would've warned us, but i guess you gotta figure that stuff out on your own. This year, i have changed myself.. and i can't go back. Which is honestly depressing if you think about it, but its a new chapter in your life that you need to start. Can't stick around in the same place for long.. it builds character.

Life is coming wayy to fast, i hope i can keep up with all these new changes and choices. With boys, family, career, school. I got alot to think about before i start everything. I appreicating that i need to grow into babyy.

"I'm real, i love the way you smell it drives me wild."

Welcome Maturity

Well I'm going to be turning 18 in 6 days. Very weird to think about to think about, because just yesterday it seemed like i was back in 8th grade. It's not just the only thing that i am turning 18, its the fact that i'm going to be graduating next year as well. College. Wow something pretty big there.

Also i have changed my aspect on things and on people in the past couple of months.  People come and go honestly.  I just don't know who to hold on to. If they or myself are good influences on each other. Maybe some day we will find out. As for now, i'm going to try to stick to what i believe who will be there for me.

As for the parties, i'm going to try not to go to any wild ones. I do not need any more trouble for myself or parents.  And i have never smoked a ciggg. don't plan to thank you. I just want to not regret anything for the future.

And i like having a xanga, so i can write down my thoughts.

Take my breath away.

Can't that be simple enough?  Song lyrics are always the best.  But i'm done looking, you can find me.

Who to call a true friend? I guess i have to figure that one out.